I can't call it depression as depression is far more serious a condition and it just never goes away. What I am feeling will go away, eventually.
Just not right away.
When I need it to go away.
Somehow, I can't seem to get my ducks in a row. I am a very ducks in a row person. I like things planned--not years in advance--but manageable. Like one, maybe two things per day that I have to absolutely MUST do. Preferably one in the morning, after 10 and one in the afternoon, around 2.
Being stuck with two things happening simultaneously creates problems and makes my stomach hurt.
I have to figure out how to divide myself, like a planeria or something. One of those microscopic life forms that can split in two.
However I try, I just can't manage to do that.
My stomach hurts. I'm exhausted. I'm sad. I'm angry. Those things I can have all at the same time.
I don't want to be like this.